May 20, 2013

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    When God speaks

    Early this morning, while still in my slumber, I had a dream that was very clear as a bell. I was with two women, and in my dream, they were my friends. My dream relates to ongoing relationships. One friend I thought would do anything when I am in need, was the opposite of what I was thinking. She was upset when she thought I overstayed my welcome when I was down and out. The other friend, who I knew would not lift a hand in times of my need because of how her character and attitudes reveal how she was; was the one who tried to help me. And in my dream, I was just testing their friendships. I announced to them that I don't really need the help. I just wanted to know what's really in their hearts.

    When I woke up, I knew that God was speaking in my dream. It prompted me to pray for my only sister who has stopped communicating with me when I've become a Born Again Christian. I understand the indifference because I was there, too. I did not want to hear the truth. I did not want to confirm to myself I was proud, that I need saving from life's unfairness. Blind as a bat was I that my happiness lies on how people will treat me and what they will do for me. I was self-centered to a core.

    All of us has the inner angst that frustrates us, dissapoints us and ultimately ruins us. As I analyzed what God is speaking to me about, I remember things that my older sister did for me when I needed help. She believes that when she would do good things to others, it comes back ten folds to her. She believes that when you show kindness to children, they will remember them when they grow up. These are the things I remember her telling me in my younger years. My sister is doing good things expecting a good return. But that's not what exactly happened in her years. She depended on people to make her happy and when she was dissapointed by them, she comes back with harsh words about them.

    I love my sister very much. Speaking about her now, I can see that I dissapointed her for not becoming what she wanted me to be. Especially now that I've become born again. My sister is moody and self-reliant, so when I've started sharing with her God's truth, she sees it as a turn off.

    My only hope is that God, in His mercy, would work in my sister's life before it's too late. God is leading me to pray for her. It was a strong leading of His Spirit that gives me joy, for the simple reason that God cares very much for my sister's eternal life.  #relationshipwithGod